I've been reading Rachel & Leah: Women of Genesis by Orson Scott Card. In it there's this conversation between Leah and a servant girl, Zilpah:
"I'm always happy," said Zilpah
"That's ridiculous," said Leah scornfully. "Nobody's always happy."
"You have nothing to be happy about," said Leah. The girl was fatherless! She had no hope of a decent marriage.
"True," said Zilpah, "but I have dreams that make me happy. And besides, I don't have to have a reason. Being sad or angry won't make my situation any better, so I might as well be happy."
"You can't just decide to be happy."
"Why not? You decide to be angry whenever you want."
This reminded me of high school. It took a big of doing, but with the help of friends I convinced myself that I was worth a lot, that I was upbeat and someone who would be a great friend. Soon enough that decision became my reality.
Today I began thinking about the choices I make regarding my feelings and opinions. Any time I began to be irritated or frustrated I said "I choose to smile about this." Another time I saw another car I'd considered which would get me better gas mileage and simply said "I choose to be happy with the car I have." My whole day has lightened and I'm finding that the things which used to irritate me just fell away. I felt in control of every aspect of life.
I guess the question is this.
Since we walk together with God, how do you choose to react to the world around you?
How do you choose to feel?